Nanowrimo '09

63,884..Woot! Finally semi accomplished something! XD

Breakthrough

Well sticking to my guns and talking things out seems to have worked out for the best. I think now that we’re talking more I can start to focus on other things that I’ve been neglecting again.

I’m at sort of a stopping point with my story. I need to make time to camp out somewhere and really focus on where I want this story to go. I have a vague idea but I’m still having trouble trying to get what I want each chapter to be like. I’ve just got so much in the way of material that I want to get out of my head and down on paper that I don’t know where to begin. *sighs* I just have to make time to sit down and really see where I want to go and how I want to edit what I’ve written in the past.

Craft-wise I’ve got a just 3 projects going. For me that’s very light. I think if I had more access to my knitting stash I’d be working on a bunch of other things and getting none of them done. I’m trying to be better about focusing on a few things at a time and so far it’s going well. It kind of sucks that I seem to be more deadline oriented when it comes to knitting. If I’m knitting something for someone else I seem to knit faster and get things done way sooner than if I were knitting something for myself. I guess knitting for yourself in a way should be more relaxing and used to learn new skills since there isn’t a deadline to get whatever project done.

Other hobbies that I’ve put on the back burner suck as drawing and painting are slowly starting to worm their way into the front of the stove. I guess watching a new anime series has started my drawing hand to start itching again. I know when I get the chance to start drawing again I’m going to be in some kind of pain because it’s been almost a year since I’ve picked up my drawing pencil. But like all of my other hobbies with a little practice I’ll be able to get my hand back into shape and hopefully can better my drawing skills.

Knitting Update

Well its been a while since I've posted some pics. I haven't been a complete bum these past few months so here's some pics of finished objects and wips I'm working on. Enjoy! X3

Update

Doing a little bit better today. I was able to get motivated to clean up around the house and just start to feel better about myself. I still feel unsettled with the way things are but I still just try to keep going on one day at a time.  I don't know why but for the past few weeks I just kept feeling sorry for myself. At times it really does suck having low self esteem but it's something that I constantly have to struggle with. I guess it didn't really help when K and I went to visit my parents to pick up more of my mail. It just wasn't cool of my mom to kind of play us against each other the way she did. Granted it wasn't major just didn't want to haul anymore food over from her place but she just wouldn't let me. I guess things still have to be her way or not at all. I know she's just trying to look out for us but I would think that my opinion would count for something. Her going behind my back like that just makes me feel like I'm less of an adult. Who knows one day my opinion will matter to someone. Ah well, just got to keep trying to stick up for myself.

I finally had a good weekend. I made up with one of my friend Katie who I haven’t talked to or hung out with since the moving business began. It was fun to have a knitting day again. We just pretty much camped out on the couch and watched old episodes of Family Guy and she started me on Arrested Development. Now I’ve got another show to keep up with. J We also took a break from knitting and went out to eat at China Buffet it was very nice for my first time going there. Then again it was just nice to get out of the house. We also took a little side trip and stopped by her new place too. 

Sunday was a productive day for me as well. I managed to finish the afghan I started the day before as well as finish another two books. I’m just a few more away from meeting my 50 book goal and then I’ll be halfway towards my 100 goal!