After talking and calming down a bit; I feel the cycle starting to crack a little. I still don't know if things are going to be different in the long run but I'm trying to take things one day at a time. All I can do is try to push through the pain so to speak and keep going.
I've finally been able to get back into watching anime. It took me a while to find some series that I could get into. While I'm waiting for some series to update I've been reading the Gossip Girl series and getting back into my sock knitting after taking a break from bigger projects.
If all goes well I'll actually be able to keep these socks for myself. Just need to figure out where to put some increases so I'll be able to knit these into a knee sock length.